With all the work I’ve done with writing and learning and reading the past year I have to say that the 30th year of my existence has been one of the most fulfilling years of my entire life. I’ve started to become comfortable in my skin as both an artist, and more importantly as a human being. I don’t even like to call myself an artist or a writer, those are just a couple of the things that I like to do in my life, and saying that those are what I AM, would be selling myself short. This has been more of a kinda year where everything, all the long days and long nights, all the learning curves and artistic plights, when all of the theory and classes taken, well this has just been a year when everything has started to gel, to come together, and man, its been a ton of work and even more love and sometimes obsession has went into everything that I do. Turning thirty was odd. I celebrated it with only myself. I jumped the fence of a private boating community by the lake at night and passed out listening to music on a beach that well I wasnt supposed to be on. Everything worked out fine. I was awoken by some morning joggers, they didn’t seem to care.
Most people are terrified or don’t want to get older, but don’t worry because I’ve deeply enjoyed this road of life, and as I’ve seen the years piling up as chapters when I have grown up, well I’ve also seen the man who I am becoming is a nicer human being, more understanding and always trying, and yeah, I still have a long-long way to go, im not even close to where I want to be, and I still have to get better at writing, practice and worry and feel defeated, but still, it’s been one hell of a run.
And oh yeah, with all the work that im doing with so many of the business ideas that individual artist has to do, well im going to do some fun things with this blog, more posts about who I am and why writing has become so important to me. I will post writings and my first books that I laughably put together when I was a kid. This blog is for documentation of where I was, and points the finger where this life may be going.
With that said many writers probably do this, but I sing songs and love music. It’s kinda my video game system so to speak when I’m not writing or thinking or blanking out as I dwell looking at just a wall. I’m not going to do this again, but since im trying to do different things with this blog, well I’ll share a song that I wrote. It’s on a site called sound cloud, link below. Also here are the lyrics. Alright, everyone who may ever read this, enjoy life. Bye.
PS. I’m not super good or anything, just shared because this blog is about adventures in writing, and this site wouldn’t be complete without how much music has played a major part in my own written life. ha….
I’m Goin’ to Laugh
I don’t want to talk
don’t know what to say today
everybody’s comin round
and everybody’s going to work today
I have a clue for you,
and maybe I will give you some truth
I don’t have a clue, and maybe I, maybe I
I don’t have what you want to give
I don’t have anyone
cause I’m staying happy
when the shadows come back for more
after me, oh-oh-oh
I don’t know why
everybody’s running wild
in the future time
everybody’s coming after me
I liked it better than
I like it better now
I liked it better than
when I was alone
I’m having times
something you never do
I’ve given something back
they’re coming after-after- after-you
I don’t have the time anymore
I don’t have anything left to give anymore
but happy-ness-ness is what I have
and I’m going to be a good-a-good-good person for the rest of my life
I’m going to laugh ,going to laugh
cause now the darkness is coming back
darkness coming back
I’m not going to go into the
2 thoughts on “April 30th, Going into the last May of my 30th Chapter”
I’ve found that each year (and have now crossed my 50th I seem to be becoming someone I am more at home with myself , I quite enjoy your writing. Cheers, G
Just listened to your song. It sounded like the song I would’ve have written years ago but didn’t, just didn’t. Thanks!